我该怎么办~
一波未平，一波又起~
我很担心..
已经近乎害怕的境界~
这件事情..
何时会落幕？
又会如何散场？
我无法向任何人倾诉我此刻的感受~
很想哭..
却不知道为了什么~
长久以来堆积的压力，
再加上这次事情的发生~
我该如何面对？

看了《还珠格格》..
我想到了我对学长团最好的比喻~
我对学长团就好比小燕子对皇宫~
有爱有恨~
爱它的人，
爱它的事，
爱它的物~
唯独讨厌它的规矩~
小燕子带着发髻，顶着旗头~
我带着红领带，配着黄牌子~
她必须背成语，背负着身为格格的形象，依然自得其乐~
爱死她那一句“要头一颗，要命一条”
我该如何才能如此豁达？
但小燕子终究博得老佛爷的欢心，
她皇阿玛的宠爱..
我呢？爸爸妈妈~
没有了~
阿头针对我都来不及~=="
即使到最后被贬回民间..
她依然有她的永琪，她的好朋友，她的哥哥，她的义父母~
我有什么？
朋友一个个离我而去~
去了KL的就不再理会~
无理取闹的无理取闹~
还好我还有一个陈苇善~
Bobo & Crystal更是我平日的开心果~
可是，这样看来我好像也只有他们~
其他的..
我甚至不知值不值得信任~

Sometimes I hope to make a private BLOG~
Only for me~
But what use if a blog is just for yourself without anybody knows?
Who are you sharing with?
与其这样，不如去写日记算了~

This post
ended with sadness, curiousity and some complicated feelings=(

不满~

我们说错了吗？
你们不都看到了吗？
这的确是一种比较~
因为我们认了~
觉悟吧~~！
我们是在说事实！
连你自己都这么说，
你还想否认什么？
你还有什么资格说我们？

对你..
我不知道我在你眼里..
甚至是心里，
究竟是什么样的地位~
或许..
我只是路过的~
一个路人对你而言~
似乎一点也不重要..~
你依然拥有属于你自己的朋友~
我想..
我只是你面对难题时，
一个暂时的雨伞~
风雨后，
雨伞没用了..
可以丢了~
你又回归原位~
继续你的路程..~

今天想起了一个比喻~

友情就像咖啡~
不同的人有不同的口味~
有些喜欢加奶精~
有的喜欢加糖..~
有的喜欢什么都不加..
苦苦的，
也别有一番风味..~

但是咖啡一旦放久了，
没有适度的保温~
失去了原有的温度，
咖啡就会变质~
即使你在加多少的热水或糖精，
味道始终不会变得和之前的一样~

我真的不懂你心里在想什么~
If it's my fault, I apologize..~
但可不可以请你再判我死刑前，
给我一个充分的理由~

I dont like to be emo~
But sometimes..
There's just something that come all of the sudden
And make me like that=(

Today is my emo-est day temporarily..~
I never think that I can be so confusing about something like this=(

+enD_

My dearest TANWEISHAN's Birthday:))))

Retard (GLEE) XD

Hari ini adalah BIRTHDAY retard ini~ xD
Happy Birthday, TANWEISHAN:))
I love this retard very very muchiieeeee:D
She is my only cousin who is same year with me=D
Still older than me beberapa bulan~ xD

I still remember that..
Since we're very very little..
We liked to mix around and play those stupid PRINCESS thing.
And the hide and seek people thing XD
It was fun for us that time..
During that time..
We used to argue everytime..
We shared our every little secrets..

And now..
The older we get,
The nicer memory we have=D


This is the one we took last year in GENTING:)

I miss the days when we're in Perak!
Always stay awake until morning only sleep~
LOL..~
Thinking back now..
We're like never sleep for very long time de hor? lolx
Still remember your AH CHANG~?
Your crazyness to GUAN YU~ LOL~!!!
AhQin led you to that what? XD

In genting..
LOL~
Cant sleep at midnight..
Then went to DA GEI~
And then what?
We ate ice-cream during the cold midnight..
And saw some GUY dancing sambil dont-know-doing-wat-thing in the pub~
XD!~


NAH!

This is one of the photo we took when you're in SANDAKAN :D
Your first time to here:))

Cousins are beloved:D
And today..
it's one of my beloved cousin's birthday:) <3

Happy Birthday again TANWEISHAN~
I LOVE YOU:D <3

_EnD_+

@.@

Feeling so dizzy@.@
Going to fever again i think><
Still tired..
I slept for 2 periods today in school!
hahaha!
Really niceee:D
Tired ma..
And the head so heavy edi><
Aikss..

Improved alot on my concentration already..XD
Really la.. X)


Orang ini amat saya rindui~ =(

TANWEISHAN! I miss you so damn much la~
Lots of things to tell you again..=(
Nicest memory with this retarded COUSIN~!!:D
Thinking back also will laugh one! hahax
PMR and UEC please faster come and go faster too!
And then~
DECEMBER..~ I am waiting=)

Getting down-er everyday at home..=(
At school still okie..
But at home..
When I'm alone in my room..
Feel like..
Oh my~
Really downn=(
Dont know why..
I always think things to the NEGATIVE sides recently..
Their unimportant word that I used to be ignore and dont care..
Can hurt me really easily now..
I dont like to show my hurt-face~
I SHOWED that i dont care...
But the heart was like being sliced~
I dont know what happened to me..
Their actions..
Their words..
And those sentences..
Really make me feel down when i think back at home=(
But actually
I wasnt that sad..
I just dont know how to describe my feelings~
I really feel like I'm just being ABANdONED by everyone!
(except for my family of course><")
They're like telling I am so not important actually..~

Okie fine..
I was just..
FA XIE-ING~
Tell me what should I do~

TANWEISHAN,
Maybe we're facing some kind of same probs~ =(
Still love die you;)

DA END@@
P/S: LOVE DIE J3A/10 too=)

Tired for all~ =(

I am tired!
I just feel that right after the debate finished~
When the result was out,
I was really brought down~=(
Oh *DOOOOOOOOOOOOT* !
How would it possible!?
This competition really unfair for ALMOST ALL of us><
This is really so DAMNNNNN UNFAIR!
FUCK!
After listening to what ahbu said..
I was really almost cried out..
My tears are ready for it..
But I just didnt let it drop and walked away=(
I dont wanna cry because of it..
I promised myself NOT TO CRY for this..
I really feel TIRED~
about EVErYtHING~
I just dont have the energy to do anything elseeee=(

I still have a test tomorrow=(
Lots of things needa finish within this week..
Aiks..
TIRED!

Simon's BACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK ! :)
The only thing that cheered me up~
But..
Sinyee had flied to KL today=X
Gonna miss euuuuu=)

gotta sleepy~
Nights everyone=)

HApi daY~ XD

Labour Day,
Woke up early in the morning and went to school~
Cause what..
I was going to RDC for HALF day trip~
Oh my~~
It was the 3rd time I went there already..
But still..
Had so much fun~ =D
YONGBOYEE, CHOONGSHINYU, CHONGKAIYI and GARy YAP!
They're such great companions !
hahaha!

The stupiak Lee Neng Yung~
Cant stop calling me that one~
Ishhhh~
Made them know about it summore~
Especially the most 38 one!
OMG~
I hate her=="

Chatted with LeeWeiChong again~
He is really a great great great friennddddddd~
I love him FOR FRIENDS~!!!
Dia itu ngong ngong punya~
Always give us "CHEN HUI LING ar CHEN HUI LING~"
XD

I didnt go to STEP boat this time..
Felt so no mood to go and STEP~
Maybe it's because of TANWEISHAN XD
That was one of the greatest memory to be with TANWEISHAN~
And really so no mood to STEP yesterday..
MANY of them know WHYYYY~
But I promised my LAOPO to go STEP with her next time~ =)

Went to tuition after RDC~
So chamm~
tired like hell><
But really had fun~
hahaha!
Laughed my ass off~
Jacky.. You started to be sampat sampat alr huh~
XD

Went to Mrs Lai again~
TIRED ar~
Kept dreaming at there=="
I came out early..
But left the latest~
Have to thank my DEAREST MANDA for this huh~
><
Made me lap=="

Steamboat with my dearest friends~
WOOHOOOOOO~
Cause manda was backkkk=D
Went to yumcha at Secret Recipe~
And started camwhoring~XD
Tat jen jen~
Kept saying what
"My Secret, My home~"
LOL~
Apa lalang dengan that~ XD
This is the one I thk most nice ! But manda doesnt allow me to upload~

Looked retarded~ XD
Go view my fb for more:)

Todayyy~
Went to tuition early in the morning again~
Love there very muchhhieeeeeeee=)
And then..
Had lunch at Simsim..
Afterthat..
LIBRARY timeeeeeeeeeee!
I went to cut my hair
LOL
Cut liao like no cut one=="
I cant see any different..

And then,
Jacky's house again!
I've been gone to his house for like..
4 weeks continuously~ LOL
We did the floor plan thing~
THat Liaw yee minn~
hahaha~ he really funny de~
Always say..
"aiya.. don say la.. later post at her blog again"
Well...
i do think it is funny~ XD
AFter liaw yee minn and elliot left..
We played Dragonball using PlayStation~ XD

WongWaiChung really cheap one lo~hahaha~
never win me de~ XD
I have the potential what~ XD
Went to sleep right after I reached home~
Tooooooooooo tired la~
Wanna sleep soon de lo=)

Tomorrow need to wake up early to draw the plan;)
Tas~ =)