加油

我从来没有失去过挚爱
我不知道失去挚爱的感觉该是如何..
我一点也不了解..
但是看你这样，我真的很心酸
即使我和你不熟..
真心希望你能坚强！
她也会希望你过得好好的 : )
加油~
你还有一堆朋友支持你~
撑下去！！都会过去的.. 
让她安心地离开，
把最美丽的她
存放在你记忆深处，一个谁也无法代替的位置~
她爱你，你爱她，大家瞭了，这就够了。
你们共同的回忆，
你们的爱，
永远无法被抹杀~
为了她，振作起来，做给大家看！
你可以为了她，成为更好的人 
加油！

Problem which i can never get away from

I'm sorry but i really dont feel like saving our friendship anymore..
It isnt your fault to not find me first or share anything with me..
It was just me.. who was being 一厢情愿..
Maybe we're just not "good friends" like what i thought we were~
I thought even if we're separated.. really far..
We will still manage to keep our friendship as long as i can keep my passion to talk to you~

Friendship is like relationship..
It needs efforts from both side..
So what if i'm willing to make the first step or even the 100th step?
You're standing still at the same place..
Not even willing to make a move..

We're like..
I always find you first..
And you just accept it.. Not even asking anything..
Only stand there and wait for me to talk..
When i'm done talking, or even when i'm not done talking,
You get bored, you gotta go.
I'm really tired of it..
And then i realised, being tolerate with me, is not what i need..
I need one who really care of me, care of this friendship
And is willing to share with me..

I dont treat you as a dustbin,
only find u when i need..
Do you know how much i wanna find you EVERYDAY?
to tell you EVERYTHING that's happening around me,
and to ask you about EVERYTHING that's happening around you..
But i dont know if i'm bothering you..
I dont really care when you didnt show interest in what i'm telling..
I dont really care when you dont care about how's my life..
But you dont even bother to answer me in details of your life..
How am i supposed to continue with the conversation?
How am i supposed to do what i thought i could do?

Miracle that i thought would happen for at least once..
Had never happened..
At this moment when i'm typing this post..
I thought of your reaction everytime i find you..
Every reaction of yours can be predicted by me..
I even know the next min you're going to tell me you gotta off..
So what if i understand you??
You dont know me at all..

Friendship is like relationship..
It could hardly afford the distance..
3 of you..
Not even one is keeping contact with me..
What can i still expect for more?
I dont know if i'm being fair..
But i know this is definitely unfair for me :)

Conclusion : I'm being stupid.. And i can never get smart in this.. But i'm getting used to it:)

108 days......

距离SPM，还有108天~
我很紧张！我很怕！我很想读！
可是，你可以不要选我心情不好的时候去给我压力吗！？
我只是想放松一下，我自己会安排，你可以不要干涉吗！？
我很不爽！我心情不好！我压力很大！我很想哭！我也不懂为什么！
总之，你不要烦我，我自然会把事情做完！
可是你现在这样，弄到我完全没有mood去读了~

我比任何人还要怕，你怕什么，这个不是你的未来，是我的。
To myself： 拜托，明天恢复正常可以吗~ :(

All ended.

It's the end of my feelings now.
No more for you.
No more next time.
This is a promise to myself.
For my own good :)

Having days like this! FUN yet pissed

School started for like 1 month ago,
Had my cny holiday like.. 3 weeks ago? LOL
despite the shocking news i got BEFORE CNY..
I kinda enjoyed my holiday with ma' friends :)
Just LEARNED HOW TO PLAY LAMI
HAHAHAHAHAA!
And i'm SOOOOOOOOOO ADDICTED XD
Had a great one.. although i didnt receive that many angpauS xD

Tsk tsk tsk.. :D

School day is kinda fun because I have ONE CLASS of awesome classmates! :)
(BESIDE THAT 2 汉奸 that switched to commerce stream XD )
just that.. those teachers..
i mean..
NOT ALL la~
Some of them just acted like a weirdo which irritates us REALLY MUCH!
And the principal is so KERAS KEPALA.
Turning into 50, doesnt mean you have to CHANGE EVERYTHING, DUDE!
School is for us,
WE are the one studying
WE are the one taking exams
WE are the one taking SPM, NOT YOU!
Please think for us and let us do our OWN DECISION.
It'll be ourselves to blame on if we made a wrong decision, NOT YOU :)
If this kind of situation continue LIKE THAT..
Sorry my dear, I'm definitely gotta go for my foundation next year:)

And and and~
Meeting is for DISCUSSING OR ANNOUNCING, not for you to CONTROL EVERYTHING !
Please behave yourself. Dont think that you're OLD ENOUGH to control. You dont have the right to do so:)


Was really not in the mood this few days..
I've never been like this, worrying about something i never did so much..
It's like..
The future is a mist, I cant see where i'm going..
And all those things about the prediction..
I felt so happy.. but yet.. started to think really much again..
I just couldn't get rid of those awkward feelings within me..
Not having good sleep every night..
I'm so sick of those bad dreams.. =(
My head was so painful and i gotta leave school early today~
Resting at home made me feel so good..
I just feel so unsteady and emo recently..
Thanks to twitter for listening to me:)
That's all for this post.. It's 11.47pm now.. I feel so exhausted..
Goodnight :)

p/s: Ya, why dont you two just get together and marry each other, I'll be SO HAPPY FOR YOU !

Manda's back :D

Manda's back:D♥
And we went out for dinner and yumcha yesterday night :D
We only had 3 persons (sophie, manda and I) at first..
Having dinner..
Chatted so much and tried to catch up what had happened around her and around us
but then we joined Wenjiun, Hungvui and Nigel at Taste to yumcha:P

Had this yesterday night :D
not bad drinking~ it doesnt have those STRONG SMELL and it only contains 5.5 alcohol :)
Drank 3 glasses of it..
Then drank 2 glasses of TIGER..
I felt the world's spinning~ lol..

CRAP alot, and..
There was one part,
Wenjiun was imitating XiaoBai, Dorothy (our addmaths teacher) and Amanda Yim's conversation when we were having our addmaths lesson -

你一定是每天晚上玩电脑玩到很夜的咯..
我哪里有..
大多数喝醉酒的人都不会讲自己喝醉的~
你觉得我有喝酒啦?

ROFLMAO!
It's still funny even wenjiun is only imitating.. and we all laughed like hell~
but then manda was so funny when we all finished laughing..
SHE SAID,

什么意思哦？

LOL!!!
Everyone of us laughed even harder and louder.. She summore gotta asked like this after she finished laughing~ She's so cute ! xD ♥

Xiaobai, Amanda Yim, Dorothy, Manda


Here's are some photos~

Manda♥


Wenjiun

Sophie♥

Hungvui

We 3 ♥

Nigel

♥ - End - ♥

p/s: I was talking with TAN WEI SHAN on the phone while writing this blog xD ♥

One random piece.

I just simply come up with this post
because i just renovated my whole page xD
It looks so much nicer now.. for me :P

I loved my old one too..
especially that picture..
but ya~
They're all about memories :)
It's time for moving on. :)

Time passes so fast~
2011 is coming to an end already~
DECEMBER is coming!
And i'm going to KL on next tuesday :D
I seriously cant wait for it already..
TAN WEI SHAN
I gt A LOT to tell you ~~~
About her and about him xD

I really wanna say BYE-BYE to the old me,
who used to cry for you but yet isn't appreciated.
I swear,
From now on,
it's not going to happen anymore :)
I'm definitely okay without you =)
Here's a piece of advice,
Appreciate those who're around you,
Dont think that there's always replacement..
Or else, you'll be regret one day, guaranteed♥

I enjoy my life now
And i know,
there's a lot of problems and tasks waiting for me,
i have to recharge myself during this holiday~
hey PROBLEMS,
Wait for me.
I am going to deal with you once i'm back from my holiday :D

p/s: I really miss you so much ♥

九把刀说：每个男孩的心目中都有一个沈佳宜
我说：每个女孩的内心深处都渴望着一个柯景腾的出现 ♥ :)